Chemistry at Work

Chemistry at Work
with love to my friend Chem

Friday, November 19, 2010

Chapter 2 Verse #1 - 12:22am The Golden Moment

It is 12:22am November 19, 2010. This moment I just turned 40 years old. It's weird to re-read that sentence right now. Funny how birthdays and funerals make life reflection either an awesome experience or a supreme downer moment. I have to say this is an awesome moment. I am so filled with gratitude to be sitting here in my pj's, in my cozy ocean view apartment at 12:22 in the morning, writing. I wasn't sure what to write but I think I've decided to make this a piece of gratitude. First and foremost, I am so very grateful and honored to have the most amazing parents on planet Earth. Mommy and daddy are my heroes. I am grateful that they took the moment to make me. My immediate circle of sister/friends-I can't be more happy thinking back on all of the laughs, the debates, the vacations, births of children, clubbing, movie nights, shopping, crying over boyfriends, celebrating boyfriends- those that turned into husbands:) Jody, Deyna, Nyanza-girl! where do I start about us:), white Nicole, black Nicole, Big sister Sona, Mystic, Angela, Dani, Karen, Michelle, just to name a few but certainly not all- I love so dearly and have shaped my world in so many ways. My sister/best friend from many lifetimes- Rikki: I am so thrilled to have been able to play together again this lifetime with you. You are truly my heart and words can never express how grateful I am for your unconditional love. Thank you for giving me Ryan and Riley.

And to all the wonderful men that have played such vital roles in my life. My childhood best friend and still my love- Markiest. Your unexpected text message two days ago was a gentle reminder of our bond. You've always been my everything. Thank you for being my friend first- who knew our 5th grade trip to Canada would last us over 30 years. My nephew James II - you are my heart. I couldn't love you more if I had given birth to you myself. Know you're always in my prayers. And now your son James III-its like I get to have you all over again 18 years later. I will never view Michael Jackson videos the same since our time we spent together this past summer. I laugh out loud every time I see a video on TV. Karim, Kwesi, Rod, Kelly, Ern, Tony, Malcolm, Dave, Richie, Thornell, Ali Babu Che- thank you for being my big brothers and for all the love, protection, harassment and jokes.

Lastly, a love letter of gratitude to me. I still have a hard time seeing myself as a grown up but I am so thankful my spirit guiding me to be the person that I've turned out to be. Like most, I spend a lot of time viewing myself through a heavy critical eye and not enough time singing my own praises. Today is a clean slate- a new day-a promise to myself to love and treat myself with the same kindness that I show to others. I'm grateful to be healthy, safe, beautiful, generous, well fed, and happy to know God.